Until recently I’ve never ever suffered from anxiety and when I first started feeling this way I struggled to come to terms with what actually was happening to me.
I felt an irrational fear or foreboding, some might say a fear of what was yet to come or what would I be facing in the future.
What is Anxiety
People with anxiety disorders frequently have intense, excessive and persistent worry and fear about everyday situations. Often, anxiety disorders involve repeated episodes of sudden feelings of intense anxiety and fear or terror that reach a peak within minutes (panic attacks).
It depends on the type of anxiety disorder, but general symptoms include:
- Feelings of panic, fear, and uneasiness
- Problems sleeping
- Cold or sweaty hands or feet
- Shortness of breath
- Heart palpitations
- Not being able to be still and calm
- Dry mouth
Most of the time I was alone I never felt this and most of the time I was with my girl this wasn’t there either but sometime it was there with utter vengeance to the point where I feared what was going to happen next.
Worse still was when my girl drank. The anxiety was made even worse as most of the times we argued was when we’d either had a drink or she had.
The feeling, no doubt was there because when drunk my girl would lose some of her inhibitions and things she’d kept bottled up inside where let out or she was more inclined to voice her opinions when inebriated! I don’t blame her for this as i’m not the most perfect man and I sure did a lot of things wrong. Also because I’m not good at dealing with confrontations or voicing my own opinions verbally.
This has left me feeling nervous around folk who drink unless I know them well. I am more inclined now to move away from people who are drunk or disassociate myself from such people.
I haven’t felt anxious now for a few weeks but the thought is still there in my head.